Sunday, October 25, 2009

Still Hanging in There

Well, it has been a while since my last post, but not much has changed since then.  The protracted withdrawal continues.  I am getting rather annoyed with it now.  Some people on the Truehope message boards were finished with the worst of their protracted withdrawal by the 5th month on the program, which for me would have been mid-October.  So I was ready and hoping for improvement around then, but it didn't materialize.  For most people it is 6 months, and by that reckoning I have only 2 or 3 weeks to go.  Some people do take even longer, but I am trying not to think about that.

I suppose there is some improvement, because the release of stored medications seems to be more random now, rather than unrelenting.  The other day I thought I was feeling pretty good, so I went to the grocery store and found myself feeling dizzy in the aisles.  Yesterday I was just sitting reading and I noticed that I felt pretty good again, and then an hour later my nose was running and the pain was back.  So it's frustrating, because I still don't feel that if I make plans for the day that there is a good chance I'll actually be able to do them.

But, there is still no return of the depression.  And that is good, because I have Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) as well.  Usually it has started by now, and it is at its worst in the last week of November.  No sign of that this year.

I am looking forward, though, to reporting in a couple of weeks that the protracted withdrawal has finally let up!