Today I am cautiously optimistic. Even though my back was slow to heal, April was a pretty good month. I managed a two day sewing class, I did some major spring cleaning, things are looking good. I am even managing one cup of coffee a day!
I have had a few days of protracted withdrawal symptoms, with all this physical work, and also still with PMS. My biggest protracted withdrawal symptom has been fatigue, where I have been dragging all day, and sleeping a couple of extra hours at night, with those good old colourful Risperdal dreams. The drug-induced dreams really have an entirely different character than my usual dreams. They are much clearer and really interesting, almost compelling. But I hate sleeping in now, and being groggy in the morning. I also notice that when the drug is active in my bloodstream my decision-making ability goes out the window. People will ask me a simple question and I just dither, which fortunately is NOT the norm for me any more. But you know, it's just a few days a month now.
I have big plans for May, starting with cooking a family dinner for Mother's Day this weekend. This will be the first time in a very long time that I have made the whole kit and kaboodle entirely by myself! I used to enjoy cooking and entertaining, so this is another milestone in my recovery.
Plus, I am planning some redecorating this month. I've had new fabric for curtains stored away in the basement for at least 3 years now. This is the month they get done! Check with me in June to see if I managed it! I also want to move around some furniture and rethink some of my storage.
I want to get the heavy lifting done this month, because I know that once the hot weather sets in I won't have the energy. It will be nice to just sit back and enjoy the fruits of my labour!